Just Had a Bad Weekend

I need a couple minutes to spill all the shit laying on my mind. My boyfriend broke up with me on Saturday night, so that would make him my ex. I am pretty upset. But not because he broke up with me necessarily, but now I am gonna be lonely. And I hate being lonely. And when we were good, we were really good. But those moments were few and far between. I am going to be okay, but it still completely sucks.I hate crying and I hate being sad, but I can't help it. I need to be single for a while. I wasn't wanting to date when I started dating him. We had been together for just over a year and we live together, and now that is all over. I hate the sudden way it all happened. I havent been happy in this relationship for a long time, but I was not ready to let go, and now I have to. His family is so amazing and now I feel like I have to let them all go too, and that is what really hurts. The worst of all. That is just the tip of the iceberg but I can't think about it anymore because I can't see. I wish i could just not care sometimes. I think that would make today and tomorrow easier. I am just so sad.